when you meet your shadow... and understand fully what the shadow, the dark part is all about... there is nothing other than to embrace and love it...

I have a little shadow that goes in and out with me, And what can be the use of him is more than I can see.

- Robert Louis Stevenson
A Child's Garden ofVerses, no.18,'My Shadow', stanza1.

The shadow has been sealed... To deal with it... not as an opponent, but to delve into it and find the root, the pain, the need.

affirmation

Whatever I think, whatever I do:
Myself, my senses, be honest, be true.

--Thinking and Destiny

Forgiveness

forgiveness ...

do i have the right to judge if i find fault in another? how can i see their fault, unless by recognizing the same fault within myself? am i better than another simply because i didn't take action on my feelings and desires, while the other did? therefore aren't both of us 'guilty' of the same feelings and desires? if so, the only thing that really separates us is degrees of weakness dealing with our feelings and desires. there are always stronger beings than us... do we ourselves want to be judged for our own weaknesses?

the problem here is not finding faults in another... or ourselves ... the problem seems to be our own need to balance our own feelings and desires... to heal ourselves first.

more on Tradition...

Jesus spend 40 days in the desert, he used to leave his disciples often to meditate (commune with the father).

After Rome took over Christianity, a little known story is that some Christians left in droves to the desert... our desert fathers. They went as far south as Ethiopia, as far east as India and China, as far west as... they lived their whole lives in little caves and holes in walls, drew a circle around themselves and sat to get to *know* the Father... Their students started the original monasteries!

The tradition of Jesus, the desert fathers, is the tradition of the Esoteric Christianity...

a +brother

on loss...

When we come close to those things that break us down, we touch those things that also break us open. And in that breaking open, we uncover our true nature.

Wayne Muller

Dreaming

"Have you ever had a dream, Neo, that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to wake from that dream? How would you know the difference between the dream world and the real world?" ~Morpheus, The Matrix movie

Walking outside one night, it seemed I was walking in a dream. Just like the dreams when lucid and knowing its a dream. Just like the dreams that feel so real that it is mistaken, as usual, for reality.

I wondered... Who's Dream am I walking in now?

"And now you come in my awakening, which is my deeper dream" ~Kahlil Gibran, The Prophet